pick me up

apparently my friend evelyn thought i was too whiny in my last email, so she decided to remind of a few very random things in can be happy for in my life.  ( CCF stands for cheesecake factory)  my comments are in [brackets]  “be thankful in all things…”

You’re alive!

You have five fingers on each hand  [yep, good and short]

You can return from Uganda any time you have had your fill–most can’t

You can read

You are still in your 30s–not over the hill like I am:)  [thanks for giving me something to look forward to]

There are billions of wonderful undiscovered calories consumption to be had and enjoyed in your life (wow, what a thought!)  [yes, that is quite awesome]

You haven’t found the perfect pen yet (think of seeking pleasures you will have as you keep looking)   [i'm not sure what she means here, but ok? the perfect pen, ok]

Tons of wonderful reads are out there

You can wiggle your toes, fingers, and your bottom [it's true, i can!]

Your heart is beating right this moment

You have a bottom that your skirt sometimes catches when you are at CCF [in reference to a jennie-style "most embarrassing-type" moment at CCF in vegas in july]

You can sing and play the guitar at the same time (I can’t do either)  ["ring of fire, the ring of fire...]

When your hands get dirty, you can wash them and everything is back to normal [this isn't always true or possible in uganda, but ok]

You have tons of friends   [true enough.  it's because i'm hot]

A museum awaits your visit   [i hope not though.  i kind of hate museums - unless it's monument park at yankee stadium, i guess]

A books awaits you

You hiked a lot of beautiful places and you will have many more experiences

You have excellent taste in clothes (I know I have your scarves and shirts!)  [ha-ha - see! - i am not a candidate for "what not to wear"]

Brad Pitt could be single again, one day [excellent!  and derek jeter still is!]

The sun will burn out and possibly become a black hole, but not tomorrow or in your life time  [that is reassuring]

You have car that breaks down but you can get it repaired eventually (you have a car)   [yeah, and my mechanic invited me to lunch last week cause i think he feels so sorry for me and how many times i show up at his place

You have eaten at the CCF; I haven't  [i need to go 85 more times to try all the yummy-sounding things on their menu]

You’ve been to a Mary Chapin Carpenter concert; I haven’t  [[woo-hoo, the best concerts!]

You have a favorite author; you have had the luxury of curling up in bed to read [lots of reading examples.  guess i better try it sometime.]

You have great skiing experiences   [great and hilarious. cream cheese!]

You have had the love of a beautiful doe-eyed creature called Pippo   [and i still do - shut up about it!]

You have and will, again, babytalk Pippo [dear sil, wight dare, funny piiippo, good giil, honey, how tute ya ar]

The sun will rise on your tomorrow and the next and the next and the next and….

Bruce Springsteen will put out another great album like Magic, one day  [gosh, i better get magic, first! ha]

You will fly sometime in the near future  [myself?  cool!  or with a wonder-woman invisible jet?]

You will watch baseball soon  [tomorrow at 4 pm]

More viewing pleasures of seeing the Williams sisters play and kick ass on the court  [gotta love some good tennis, this is true.]

 

can i go home now?

sometimes i just really have a hard time living here in uganda.  everything about it remains so foreign and distant from what i’ve always know in my life.  i get lonely.  always having to adjust to fit how things are here becomes wearisome.  it can be like i am living someone else’s life sometimes, and i am just watching it happen.  i’m sure that doesn’t make sense.

but, lately i have so wanted to just hop on plane, go get pippo, and bee-line it back to the rez.  i want to remember the sound of friends’ laughter because i actually get to hear it.  i want to walk in stillness and quiet.  i want to not be stared at.  i want to blend in with everyone else.  oh to curl up with a fire in the woodstove. 

i know i am “ok” and that all will be alright and all that.  but, i just want to have a normal life sometimes.  play games with people, go hang out somewhere, pick up the phone and talk without it costing $30/45 minutes, be able to just share everyday things with people as people do, live a real life with real people who even know me a little bit.

i suppose this is all just a bit selfish.  “i want” this and that.  but, that’s just how it is today.  this is just more of a psalm 88 phase than a psalm 100 phase i guess. 

why do i share it here?  just cause.  cause sometimes life isn’t always pretty.  and i don’t figure anyone is really reading this anyway. ha.  and i am not always this strong, courageous person some think.  actually, i kind of never am.  in my weakness he is strong.  that is so true.  may that be true.

dear sill funny right there PIPPO!

my girl….now off to the heatwole household….thank you jesus for this gift the past 7 years…